Disquiet. Confession.

Aku kini memiliki seorang pacar. Pacar yang (menurutku) terbaik diantara yg dahulu pernah menjalin hubungan denganku.

Terbaik? Iya. Bukan karena aku sedang kasmaran aku bisa menulis begitu. Ini hanya hasil penilaian sementaraku saja. Tetapi aku berharap penilaian ini bisa untuk slamanya. Amin.

"Dulu aku pernah kehilangan, aku tidak mau kehilangan lagi. Jadi aku akan menjaga yang ada saat ini". Itu adalah kalimat yang dia katakan kepadaku beberapa hari yang lalu. Jujur saja mendengarnya aku senang, karena dia ingin mempertahankan aku. Sebelumnya aku tidak pernah mendengar kalimat seperti ini. Yang aku dengar hanyalah janji-janji. Ya janji-janji yang ternyata semua kebohongan.

Dari sekian banyak hubungan yang telah kujalani, semuanya gagal. Ada yang beda agama, tidak cocok hingga yang ternyata melakukan pengkhianatan serta kebohongan. Aku terkadang berpikir sebenarnya apa yang salah denganku? Apa aku terlalu baik? Terlalu polos? Atau aku terlalu egois? Entahlah.....

Aku berharap hubunganku saat ini berhasil dan berjalan mulus. Jika ada masalah semoga terselesaikan saat itu juga. Semoga hubunganku kali ini yang terakhir yang bisa kupertahankan dan kuperjuangkan dengan segenap hatiku.

-mylove-

Rea, love of my live

Halooo semua! apa kabar? ahahaha alay. Sekarang jam 12.34. Lagi ngerjain tugas Pemrograman Jaringan, tapi banyakkan liat youtube drpda ngerjain tugasnya hahahaha. Bisyaaakkk! Lagi pada ngapain kalian? 

Btw gue pengen share poto keponakan gue yang cute abessss. Ya kayak gue juga laaah kyaaaaaaa~

Niii poto ponakan guaaaa

Cute gak? lucu gak? hah??? Iyaaa jelas bangeeet.. Dia ini namanya Francesca Rea. Blasteran coyyy. Jawa-Dayak-Melayu ahahahaha=))

Naaah, ini poto bareng guaaaaa

kyaaaaaaaaa~ maap banget yaaak poto diambil pas belum mandiii ahahaha

Oke deh yaa segitu aja dulu, abisss nge-blog gini otak jadi fresh lgi, lanjut tugas lagi ^_^

Perjuangan

Hidup kita ini tidak mungkin berlalu tanpa sebuah perjuangan. Perjuangan dapat berlangsung diberbagai bidang hidup kita. Seorang anak yang bersekolah dari taman kanak-kanak, seorang ibu yang selalu mengerjakan pekerjaan rumah, seorang ayah yang bekerja membanting tulang demi keluarganya, itu semua perjuangan. Anyway, dalam melalui masa-masa perjuangan itu pasti banyak banget yang sering merasa lemah,gagal,rapuh,'galau',dll. Yap! itu biasa dalam melewati perjuangan.
Tau gak kenapa hidup mesti berjuang? ya itu lah alasannya kalian hidup. Tidak mungkin kalian hidup flat2 aja. Hidup ini indah, penuh seninya. Jangan pernah kalian kalah sama masalah2 yg kalian dapatkan. Ingatlah selalu pada Tuhan yg selalu bersama kalian.. :)

Bruno Mars - Marry You

It's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go,
No one will know,
Come on girl.
Who cares if we're trashed got a pocket full of cash we can blow,
Shots of patron,
And it's on girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

I'll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like oooh,
So whatcha wanna do?
Let's just run girl.

If we wake up and you wanna break up that's cool.
No, I won't blame you;
It was fun girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Just say I do,
Tell me right now baby,
Tell me right now baby. [x2]

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

The Script - Breakeven

i'm still alive but i'm barely breathing
just prayed to a god that i don't believe in
cos i got time while she got freedom
cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

her best days will be some of my worst
she finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st
while i'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
what am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up and your ok
i'm falling to pieces
i'm falling to pieces

they say bad things happen for a reason
but no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
cos she's moved on while i'm still grieving
cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

what am i suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
what am i suppose to say when i'm all choked up and your ok
i'm falling to pieces
i'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
you took your suitcase, i took the blame.
now i'm tryna make sense of what little remains
cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

i'm still alive but i'm barely breathing
just prayed to a god that i don't believe in
cos i got ti'me while she got freedom
cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

what am i gonna do when the best part of me was always you
what am i suppose to say when i'm all choked up and your ok
i'm falling to pieces
i'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

New One

I'm a new member.